Iam so tired. when will these ends ?
when i am gonna be happy ?
forever i am just a trash to you, my purpose is only to care for your kids. i should just shut the fuck up because we all have to be very thankfull we have been fed and sheltered.
Ok i am trying and will keep on trying to Zip my mouth. but your control only up to that, no one will pour its heart from you ever since there wont be any good in your method. All you seek in this marriage is only slavery & submission.

Dear Luna i just woke up from a dream, quite vivid untill now, i want to share it here.
There's young me, entangled with 2men who are real brothers. Iam the official girlfriend of the older brother which is a boring type who doesnt make you laugh but hold you tightly and kiss you dearly.
While his little brother is a funny guy & love having fun.
When i open my eyes, i feel sentiment over that dream. This is what we are, or should i say this is what happend to us from young till aged.
When we were young, we want excitement always something new, always seek for amazement.
while after have kids, you need a man who hold you dearly kiss you with love. a man who doesnt fun but can lead a peacefull home.

Another Lonely Teary nights

http://www.peacefulhusband.com/things-a-husband-does-that-make-their-wife-feel-unloved/

Every point stated there he did to me, no surprise. Yet he thinks iam a bad bad wife. Whatelse is left in this marriage?

Always made Lonely

What you want, you can get it.
what i want, always have to forget it.
No one understand, no one include you ever care, how much tears i shed at night when everyones are asleep.
You made me wonder why i am here.
why i wake up and sleep with so much loneliness.
Iam already hopeless.
the thing that i ever want from you will never there for me, ive wasted my life.